Going Rogue: To go "rogue" means to make a large deviation from one's strict training. For example, in the United States agents like FBI, Secret Service etc. get special training and are indoctrinated to follow the rules of their profession. If an individual agent starts to behave contrary to the rules he or she has gone rogue.
I've spent my life believing that one's personal health and fitness are only that person's business. But maybe that's because it's always been a struggle for me. Maybe it's because I'm not comfortable broadcasting my weakness. Maybe it's because I just wanted have a fabulous "after" picture, and pretend like there was no "before".
On January 1, I'll be inviting my congregation into my journey to become the person that I am in my head-- the person that God intended me to be. I'll be sharing this blog with them, and creating another one as we seek to become a healthy church together. I'm going to ask for my congregation's support as I begin creating a healthy way of living my life. (I'm going to be embracing a "please don't feed the pastor" campaign.
I've always written this blog annonymously. There are lots of people that I'm really close to that don't know anything about it. I wanted it that way. I wanted the security of keeping it a secret. But I've realized that keeping it a secret gives me an out. If I've not said anything about my plans, then no one will hold me accountable when my motivation starts to flag. No one would be in my business.
I've never been successful before, either.
I took a step and have started working with a trainer-- which was new for me. That's one other person that I've let be in my business. That's one other person that I have to be honest with. He's helped me realize that being accountable only to myself isn't really being all that accountable.
So today, I'm going rogue. I'm deviating from what I strictly adhered to. I'm going to be linking this blog to my facebook page-- so that my friends and loved ones will actually see it. I'm going to be owning my identity as "The Pudgy Parson" and admit that I've spent years neglecting my health.
Deep breath. Push "publish". Be better than before. Go rogue.