My body is up to no good. I'd blame the chiropractor if I didn't like him so much. (Since he's apparently going to be a character in my story for a while, I guess he deserves a name like He-who-trains received. Henceforth, I shall call him "He-who-adjusts".) At least he warned me about the crazies...only he called it "re-tracing." Apparently, the muscles of the human body hold memories. And after beginning chiropractic treatment, old physical or emotional injuries can come back to the surface. He told me that if I had repressed any feelings, they could come to the surface in powerful and unexpected ways. He warned me that I might get angry or suddenly start crying. I don't really understand it, but this article helped a lot. I'll be honest. When he warned me, I couldn't quite picture it. Or maybe I thought it was such a weird sounding thing that I didn't listen all that closely. It didn't sound like something that would happen to me. Which of course means that it did. I felt pretty rotten all day yesterday... green to be exact. I thought I was low on carbs or somehow dehydrated. I felt hungover and had no fun to show for it. But there's a lot going on, and stress is high. I made another scheduled trip to He-who-adjusts and I was apparently tense. Imagine that. He had to do a lot of adjusting to get me to stop hurting so badly. I went to bed early. I didn't sleep well, but around 1, I woke up sobbing--you know that ugly, animal choking sound type of cry-- for no apparent reason. I wrote a friend an angry and completely irrational letter (which I had the good sense not to send.) But this morning, at least emotionally, I felt fine.
Physically, however, it's been a pretty rough day. I almost feel like I have the flu. I'm supposed to be at church, but that is way outside the realm of possibility. My stomach is ten shades of mean, and I have a ridiculous headache. I can't concentrate on anything. (Ask me how long this post has taken to write. Forget anything that I was supposed to be working on... of which there is much. Fear inspiring writing deadline looms in just a few days. This is NOT the time. I'm hoping by plowing through this post, that will settle my brain down a little so I can write something serious.) I feel clammy and weird. My skin feels sunburned though I've not been outside for more than thirty seconds in several days. I thought it was stress or maybe I'm coming down with something, but I'm beginning to have another suspicion. He-who-adjusts recommended I try two things (he works holistically--viewing the body as a system. He is trained in this sort of healing that goes beyond standard chiropractic work.) The first suggestion was that I get on some probiotics. I will not describe for you my feeling on these things, or how much fun they've made me to be around, but maybe that's part of the process. The other suggestion was that I go gluten-free. He-who-adjusts suspects that I have an allergy to something, and the most common thing that produces this level of toxicity is gluten. (If this winds up being true, it could explain why I've had so much inflamation and have plateaued so much. He-who-trains disagrees with the latter... citing my lack of consistent perfect eating. But I'm already on that one as you can see here. He's going down.) Since Friday, I've not had any gluten of which I am aware. I've read labels and done some beginning research. And now having felt awful for two days, I did some checking. Sure enough. Lots of other people have had these exact same symptoms as they've gone gluten-free. My body is apparently detoxing from gluten... which is weird, because I was having so little of it anyway. How is this a thing? I get detoxing from alcohol or drugs or whatever... but wheat? Seriously? This article helped some, and so did this one. I thought I'd go gluten-free for thirty days just to see what happened, but I'm beginning to wonder if there is something to this.
I wish I'd done a little more research-- this was not the time for this. But then again, maybe there's never a good time to feel crappy... and never a bad time to start being well. Blrrrgh.
Anyone been through this? Would love to know what you've found helpful. I'm on new ground here.